{Kate}

I do not know how to express in words what I want to say. I wish there was a way to just let me heart open up, and write all this down for me...

Kate, my sister...is the most beautiful woman I know.

When I look at her, I see exactly who I hope to become. I am so blessed to have been able to follow her, a little unknown shadow for so many years.

I would like to say that I am mentally strong. I would like to say that I am motivated and driven. I would like to say that I will be a good mom someday.....but in reality, all of these things are because of her.

I never would have been brave enough to go play college volleyball if it wasn't for her. I never would have had the strength to run 13.1 miles straight without her voice in my ear. Now lets take a step back and realize that yeah, I am pretty independent and will be successful someday...but Kate has been a part of every step I take for (almost) 21 years now. She is my role model, my source of positive energy, my only big sister to look up to, and my very best friend.

If only I could find a husband who had the level of 'Kortnie Sense' that she does.

Kate, when you read this I want you to know how you have influenced me this last month. Watching you bring the most perfect baby girl into the world was a modern day miracle...

First off, I must say....I thought I scored big time by simply making it off the plane in Arizona before you had the baby. I was relieved and pumped that you were having contractions.I wanted to keep walking and running around just to keep you progressing. I wanted to whisper corny little mantras in your ear and get that baby out....

I should have known that you would take the lead and be able to get yourself there all on your own... You, again taught me that I needed to just relax and let things happen. To find your inner strenth...

I want to thank you for letting me be a part of that special day with you and Brian. I know I was not the greatest photographer, but I tried my very best :) Sometimes I would catch myself just starring, wiping the little tears from my eyes. Of course all that was between the snapping photos, constant texting fam on progress, and trying to keep you focussed.
When I saw the peace and calm within you during this whole process I was so suprised. However, I distinctly remember when the look in your EYES changed. You look more determined and ready that I have ever seen. You looking strong and in control...always calm...but powerful. Witnessing a baby being born and feeling the energy of the room...I was kind of at a lack of emotions. I don't think it all hit me until last night...I was having such a hard day and the only person, second to my Heavenly Father, that I wanted to talk to...was you. you are a hero kate. Someday Ellie is going to know how amazing her Mother is and realize that you have a gift. You are so stable. You are so giving. You risked your life to bring that sweet girl into this world. You walked through so much pain for her, and Ty. You make worldy things not matter. You remind me that there is no greater thing on this earth than Family. (luckily, we have one of the best around). But you are making your OWN family. I want it...because you have it. Kind of like all the new clothes you buy:)


I really hope you can be there when I experience all of this someday. I already know I will be a sweaty, screaming mess...:)But, I hope you can be there to hold my hand, paint my toe nails, and tell me that I can do hard things. Just like you always do....and always have. I love you. I know Brian and Ty Love you, and I cannot wait until Ellie can tell you for herself :)

I love being an Aunt. I cannot think of anything greater so far in my life. I am so happy you get to go through everything before I do (high school drama...college vball....marriage...babies...haha). Thank you for being my Rock. Miss you Sis...:)thank you for helping me through all my hard times. I will never give up on being a nurse..thanks for promising to never let me.

See you soon Kate♥