{Patience}

For some reason....stress always seems to just build up inside me for long periods of time. I have a skill called...bottling up my emotions. I would not recommend acquiring this skill. Anyway, a lot of changes have started to take place in my life and I have found myself at a very discouraging and frustrating road.

I am trying to get into nursing school. I feel smart qualified. I feel motivated and ready. However, to the committees in the Nursing schools that I apply to, I am just another application packet. I did not get in to two of the schools I applied to. I was immediately sad and got discouraged. I am still waiting to hear back from one more...{still hopeful}. But, I do realize that this is my first round applying, and here in Utah, people apply for years before they get in sometimes. I know that all of this is happening for a reason. There has to be a better plan for me. A better one that I have wanted to make for myself. God has a plan for me. 

I am trying to buy a car. I am a first time car buyer, and ya know...never had a credit card or have credit of any kind. I never thought it would be so stressful trying to figure out financing....and I would find myself just crying and trying to figure it out. And then I came across a really amazing car situation yesterday. Everything for the first time started to come together, and seemed like a good idea. I decided that I needed to pray really hard about this, to find a feeling a peace to move forward with buying this car. And....the Peace never came. My wonderful Dad reminded me that patience will lead me to the best places in life. I need to remember not to rush into anything...be patient in waiting and listen to the promptings from up above.

I think Patience is the greatest lesson to be learned in this life. Good things come to those who wait. (in all aspects of life)...I feel like having patience is the story of my life.

I have decided that I am going to keep waiting...and keep praying...and keep believing that the best is yet to come. In this, I found some peace.

"God is anxiously waiting for the chance to answer your prayers and fulfill your dreams, just as He always has. But He can't if you don't pray, and He can't if you don't dream. In short, He can't if you don't believe.” 
― Jeffrey R. Holland